Friday, March 29, 2013

Today I Cry a Tear #vetoviolence

Today, I cry a tear. It was last year the day before Easter that I learned my best friend had been brutally murdered. I can't begin to tell you how difficult it was to go through this, not only because of our friendship, but because of the circumstances surrounding his death. In my eyes, there were two victims; Chris and his killer. You can read more about it HERE.

The pain was overwhelming. The details horrific. The loss nearly unbearable. Chris was my soft spot. He knew me better than anyone I knew. He saw what was at the core of me and loved me. He got me.

And although my life took me a state or two away from him and my marriage and family limited my time with him, when we did see each other, it was as if we never missed a beat.

I could go on and on about my sadness, about my love for Chris, about how great of a person he was, about how much he gave to his community and friends, about how everyone loved him, about how I have dealt with losing him, but that isn't what this post is about.

This is about Chris' message. This is about what Chris wanted to give in the world. And that was love. Chris wanted to wipe tears. He wanted to love the hurt. He wanted to save the children.

I think it is no coincidence that his name is so close to Christ. I think it is no coincidence that Chris died Easter week. Chris died loving, just as Christ. Forgive and love one another.



Trace said...

Thank you for sharing about Chris' life, his spirit. I feel like I know him, through you. He did not die in vain. You will remind us of his gifts. Thank you for that. Love you. Xoxo T.

Julie Wood said...

What a wonderful person and friend Chris was to you! We remember him with you, and know that he is in heaven! God Bless you and I wish you a Happy Easter!

ann said...

You often wonder why bad things happen to good people. Chris and his spirit lives on in those he had to leave behind. I understand the pain you feel. My brother and 2 of his friends died in a horrific car accident over the Easter holidays 37 yrs ago and I still think about it now. Peace be with you

Marsha Cooper said...

I do feel your pain over the loss. My cousin was also brutally murdered just the day before Easter, but 25 years ago. He is always thought of still on this day. He soon would have been 21 years old the following week as Easter was in April that year.

Amy said...

Thinking of you. So sorry for your loss. There are no words... but the Holy Spirit is the comfortor. May you be comforted by Him.

Elizabeth Towns said...

The year mark seems like a long time when someone we love is gone; but it’s really not. Sometimes it’s as if the call just came yesterday, or even just this morning. I appreciate the message in your friends life - would that we all were as fortunate to have someone exemplify service, mercy and grace so that we could emulate it in our own lives. The best thing is that Chris’ life is still speaking to people, even now.

Sharon Martin said...

So sad to read your post, sych a terrible loss, thinking of you xx

Petula Wright said...

I remember when you first wrote about his death. I hope this year was at least a smidgen easier ... Passing on his message and his mission is definitely an exercise in love. You've beautiful written and shared an important part of him and you with this post. Thank you... and hugs, love to you.

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